Going to uni

ARGHHH, WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK IS THAT?!?!

Been cleaning my room today, taking posters off the walls for the upcoming room switch, and I found a bloody great lump of black mould hiding behind a photo. It looked at me, I swear!!

Also, sweet mother of God, who knew I had so much stuff? I think it breeds when I'm not in the room.

Anyway, sent my deposit off to the private hall people (I didn't get into owned halls - bugger) and wrote a letter to my employers, begging for a transfer, so all's right with the world. Just gotta clean out my wardrobe and sort what I'm taking with me now, then I'm all set. Off to live at uni. On my own. For the first time in my life.

Hold me.

Amsterdam

Oh, I didn't write about my holiday, did I?

Amsterdam was nice, but we were about an hour away from the city centre, and Dad insisted we walk, so understandably, we were pissed. This culminated with an hour and a half's walk back from the pub at half one in the morning, in a foreign city where I don't know the language. Dad was drunk, and after we stopped talking 'cause we were tired, he reverted to self pity, which ended with an argument that went something like this:

Dad: I just feel like the worst father in the world. (For like the fortieth time that night)
Me: Enough! I don't have the energy to deal with your ego. I'm tired, i'm cold, I'm scared and my feet hurt because we got lost. Don't say you feel bad twenty times; say it once and then fix it.( Jesus, that sounds awful when I type it back)
(ten minutes later)
Dad : You shouldn't pretend to be thirty, Keeva, It doesn't suit you.
Me: If you're gonna act like a teenager, then someone has to be grown up.

This is basically how every interaction with my father has gone since I was fourteen. I know I'm not the world's best daughter, and I know  I'm selfish and rude at times, but he's the parent and I'm not supposed to be looking after him. I spent years trying to please him and he never gave a damn, but now I've had it, and he comes crawling after me, wanting to be my best friend? Fuck that for a game of soilders.